"Hopelessly Drowning"

I feel the warmth of the water as it covers my face.
It is the first warmth that has covered me so completely, I felt so cold inside.
I wonder if the hopeless feeling won't last.
I have been drowning in this loss of feeling, not able to breathe.
I wonder if drowning in water would feel the same...Should I find out.
My mind remembers the loneliness, my heart feels the hopelessness.
My lungs scream for air, it would be so much easier just to leave the pain behind.
It doesn't feel like my time, slowly floating down into the water, maybe it is..