“How can this be?”

I feel nothing.
I feel so un-empowered.
I love you for you.
Yet there is no in love anymore.

I feel so unhappy.
I just want to cry.
Why show me joy?
Only to take it away!
I am who I am.
Why can't you be you?

How can this be?
Nothing I will do.
Nothing I say will change this.
It hurts so much!
Yet I feel nothing.

My smile hid what is inside.
Now there are no smiles.
My eyes could hide the pain.
Now they are filled with pain.
I used to fear being alone.
Alone isn’t a fear anymore.

Small things made me sing.
Singing only brings sadness.
The sun shines outside, and
One day it will shine again in me.
The sound of a child gave me hope.
Now hope of a child is gone.

How can this be?
Nothing I will do.
Nothing I say will change this.
It hurts so much!
Yet I feel nothing.

Things need to change.
I can’t go on like this.
It has been broken and can’t be fixed.
I don’t want to be right, I want to be kind.
My journey is decided now I must follow it.
I am sorry for the pain.
Thank you for the memories of joy.

How can this be?
Something I do.
Something I say will change this.
It is going to hurt so much!
I feel everything.