“How can this be?”

I feel nothing.
I feel so un-empowered.
I love you for you.
Yet there is no in love anymore.

I feel so unhappy.
I just want to cry.
Why show me joy?
Only to take it away!
I am who I am.
Why can't you be you?

How can this be?
Nothing I will do.
Nothing I say will change this.
It hurts so much!
Yet I feel nothing.

My smile hid what is inside.
Now there are no smiles.
My eyes could hide the pain.
Now they are filled with pain.
I used to fear being alone.
Alone isn’t a fear anymore.

Small things made me sing.
Singing only brings sadness.
The sun shines outside, and
One day it will shine again in me.
The sound of a child gave me hope.
Now hope of a child is gone.

How can this be?
Nothing I will do.
Nothing I say will change this.
It hurts so much!
Yet I feel nothing.

Things need to change.
I can’t go on like this.
It has been broken and can’t be fixed.
I don’t want to be right, I want to be kind.
My journey is decided now I must follow it.
I am sorry for the pain.
Thank you for the memories of joy.

How can this be?
Something I do.
Something I say will change this.
It is going to hurt so much!
I feel everything.

"Lemur"

He sits on his high perch, looking out across his domain.
He licks his lips at the morsel of food he spies.
His nose twitches at the scent of the ripe fruit.
His hand reaches out and plucks the mouth watering morsel and plops it into his mouth.
His eyes moving around, to spy the next morsel.
Ah such is the life of the Lemur, sitting high up on his perch.

"Hopelessly Drowning"

I feel the warmth of the water as it covers my face.
It is the first warmth that has covered me so completely, I felt so cold inside.
I wonder if the hopeless feeling won't last.
I have been drowning in this loss of feeling, not able to breathe.
I wonder if drowning in water would feel the same...Should I find out.
My mind remembers the loneliness, my heart feels the hopelessness.
My lungs scream for air, it would be so much easier just to leave the pain behind.
It doesn't feel like my time, slowly floating down into the water, maybe it is..