“An Angel”

I close my eyes; all I see is your smiling face.
I hold a rose; all I smell is you.
I put a morsel in my mouth; and it reminds me of the times I ate off your plate.
I giggle, the sound is so much like you.
I wrap my arms around me, and it feels like you hugging me.

You were there to kiss my pain away.
You cuddled me when the nightmares kept me awake.
You soothed my head when my temperature was sky rocketing.
You let me drink from your glass and then ordered another.
You smelled like vanilla ice-cream, when you wore your special perfume.
You showed me the world through a lens, and it is so wonderful.
You allowed me the smallest comfort in the world, with you saying, “I love you”.
You taught me that a single word can kick my tickle box over.
You showed strength to go on, gave me the courage to know that I am able to.
You saw the person I have become; I know you watch over me.

I shed a tear when I think of you not being physical anymore.
I know I shouldn’t though there is a tear always nearby.
I miss your physical hugs and cuddles.
I miss holding your hand as we walk side by side.
Mostly I miss you more than these words convey.

I look at the old pictures I have of you.
I listen to the voice messages you left.
I see you in my dreams; they are so full of reality.
I feel you near me; and it comforts me.
I eat vanilla ice-cream just to smell you.

You spread your wings every day, though I never saw them for what they were.
You glowed with the love you shared; little did I know it was more.
You showed me kindness, when I felt there was no more.
You left and I know it wasn’t easy, though you went to where you were needed.
You spread your angel wings one last time, and I knew you were one.

With one last hallelujah, you were home.
An angel who looks like you.