“Bestie”

Being one that is special to another, being the best of friends.
Ensuring that bond last with each passing day.
Staying in contact with each other whenever you can.
Time spent in making memories that will last long after we gone.
Insightfully different for each of us, however still the same.
Ending never, not even in death.

I brace myself every morn to face this day without you.
Love does not feel the same as it was when you were alive.
This world feels less without your smiles, hugs, and love.
My world and spaces are less without you.
Memories shared, keeping me when I feel the despair of your passing.
Then and now you are special to me, and I will keep you with me every day.
Then I think, what if I keep painting the clouds with sunshine?
Then I think, what if you are helping me paint the blue skies?
Then at the end of the day I close my eyes and fall asleep.
I see you in my dreams and hug you and tell you I love you.

Till we see each other again, I love you, my Bestie.

“Bound by Love”

Bound in chains to the suspicions.
Trapped in my fears of trusting.
Trapped in my anxieties of letting people down.
Trapped in my doubts of not loving again.
Fear of tearing the littlest bit of love apart.
Walls that I build to keep from being in love.

Sharing my doubts and anxieties removed the traps.
Sharing removed the fears of tearing up love.
Sharing tore down the walls brick by brick.
Sharing opened my trust.
Sharing me with you made it real.

I have learned to be me with you.
I embrace ever moment I have with you.
I sense your energy around me all the time.
The sense of loss I feel when you are not.
Every night finding you in my dreams.
Tasting the sweetness of your smile.

Loving with you.
Trusting with you.
Feeling with you.
I am strong.
I am love.
I am trust.
I am bound,
Yes, I am bound by love.